Me time!!!

It has been years since I have actually lived my life for me, taking care of what is important to me and doing what I want without getting approval or thinking about what others think first. I am ready, for it is way overdue. I have lived many of the last years unhappy and held back. No more. Now I have the time to focus on me! I have no idea how to really do that, since I haven’t had much experience in it! Being in the right relationship should never cause unhappiness or hold you back. I haven’t quite figured that one out yet! I have not been single much since I started dating when I was 15. No more than a couple months at a time. I am not one to search them out, and it seems every time one ends and I am ready to focus on me, I get tied into another one. I have no idea why. I am not a needy person, I do not need to be in a relationship and I have yet to find one that makes me happy! I have felt I have come close a time or two, but it has been a while. Since it seems in a way I am back tracking and not making much progress I have decided to take a break from that scene. I have just started a new job, and have very recently left the person I was dating, what better time to start over! I am incredibly excited and scared at the same time. I have no idea what to expect and I have no idea if I will be able to keep myself off the dating scene. It seems as soon as people find out I am single they start lining guys up for me. Maybe I should become a nun.  just kidding! I feel fortunate, in a way, that this has all happened at the same time. It gives me a fresh start to life almost. A perfect time to decide to focus on me and figure out what the heck I want out of life! I have realized that is a very difficult thing to do when you are constantly with someone. Every decision is based on how they will feel about it, how it will affect both of you etc. I am done with that, at least for now. I feel, in a way, that I have missed out on a lot of things by being in the wrong relationships. Life is too short for that! I have always been the one to give the advice to find yourself first before finding that one to fit your life. I think it is time I start listening to my own advice…